Monday, October 27, 2008

Symptom Overload

Sometimes, I just want it to end.

It seems like I'm falling apart. The symptoms are almost too numerous to recount:
- The chest pains. X-ray came back negative here, which I guess is good.
- The stomach problems, which continue. Must wait for doctor.
- The weird bruises from blood test. And will results be OK?
- The tooth. Did I break it? Was it even the tooth?
- The burning lungs while running. Was it from running @ work? Or something more serious?
- The *new* pain on left side of lower abdomen/pelvis. Gas pains? Related to whatever is causing the other stomach things, or an additional symptom which could tell of worse things to come?

It's too much. Coupled with school, fiancee not feeling well, some domestic strife due to our 'issues', feeling like I'm slipping behind...

I feel very fragile, but I have a hard time believing that I really am. What did I do to get myself in this deep of a hole (if it's true), or what the hell is causing all this phantom pain and overr-reaction?

It's hard being me. Fiancee says I should trade places with her, then I'd see how hard it is. But it's hard enough being me.

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